Find myself lost

sumerged in a boiling water bathtub

I see steam coming out

my skin feels nothing

only nicotine in my body

organs dont't complain

how can they?

are even alive?

no way to tell

dont feel a thing

no pain

no sorrows

no joy

all is gone

only the body is left

a lifeless body

no thoughts

dreams

hopes

nor strenght

nothing is left

only silence

...and nothingness

some empty spaces

the world looks the same

.... no cars on the street

... no one in the house

..book without words

carton boxes signifying the change

new era, old era

doesnt matter....

bright future was bombered tonight...

not sure he'll survive

i'll go to sleep now

maybe tomorrow I'll wake up with some life

and if I'm lucky with another dream to conquer.